My friends know that I am an OC. They usually make fun of my OC-ness. Workmates usually give a cry of relief when we are done with a project. Family and friends as well. So imagine the level of my OC-ness. If they found my OC-ness a serious matter and some sort of a torture, imagine the torture my husband and my son get everyday considering we live on the same roof, we go home to the same house, day in and day out, without any helpers like what we had in Manila.
Well, when I became I mum, I started to let go a bit of my OC-ness. I thought that life is too short and I would end up miserable trying to do everything as planned. As one article puts it, you have to choose your battles. After letting go of some things, I thought it would end there. But I soon see myself letting go of some more things and try to see beauty of that choice.
I have been trying to teach my son how to be responsible by letting him pack away his toys after play. I would like to think that I am successful at this point but there are also some days where he seems to forget to pack away. On those days, I end up nagging my two-year old telling him to pack away his toys or else...but two days ago it just occured to me that there is beauty on all of those toys scattered on the floor of his room.
The beauty I saw was maybe inspired by the Spirit because I believe, I cannot realize that one, on my own. I realized that I should be thankful because I had something to clean. That something that I had to clean is actually a concrete sign that I have been blessed with a son. A happy, bubbly, bright and healthy little boy. It occured to me that those scattered toys has been there because my son was actually playing with them. I would rather have a room full of scattered toys, than a clean room without him.
Yes, it may be so simple for you but I took delight when I realized it. And so now, I let go some more. Passing by the room of my son at night and seeing the toys he forgot to pack away does not make me fret anymore. It actually puts a smile on my face because, I know, when I see the toys, I got to spend and will get to spend more precious time with me little one again.
