I feel good! Yes, I do! I wanted to work on my last requirement for this term in my REd class and before I started hitting the keyboard, I got a new e-mail.
The results of my 2nd assessment, for my REd class, was emailed already with my assessors comments. I got a bit cold. I got a bit scared. I can hear my heartbeat as I pressed the Page Down button of the computer. And there it was, something that made my day!
I am in a foreign land to them, we will be forever, the foreigners. So it's been quite challenging for my part to prove what Asians, and Filipinos, for that matter, can do and achieve. I won't be a hypocrite and tell you that my groupmates welcomed me with open arms during our first meeting. There were some who were polite. But there some who showed some, hmm, how do I put it? Well raised-eyebrows and a little "I'm not interested-in-you attitude." To be specific, in one of our meetings, and after the results of the first assessment came back, some people received some negative feedback from our assessors-- she was one of them. She was asking as to what the assessors want, well, I wanted to share some ideas because I didn't receive any negative feedback, but what I got was something that I really didn't like. She kept on interrupting me when I try to say something, you know, just to cut the conversation short. Oh, I've met a lot of people like that in Manila. But this time it feels different, because, I can see that we are still different. Color, culture, beliefs, and practices and she makes sure that I can feel and see that. I just hope that in the next meetings, she would lighten up.
I feel good because just in case she still acts like that the next time we meet, I don't have any insecurities anymore. The commendation I got from my assessor is more than enough to prove that seeing us less capable of them, is a very big mistake! The next time we meet and she still acts the same, oh, she'll get what she's asking for! ;)
I feel good because in a foreign land, where people see us less than them, I was able to prove them wrong. We can achieve and we can even be better than them.
