Money has never been an issue with me and hubby except if it involves sending money overseas especially to his parents. I have always embraced this mantra: our family first, our kids first before giving something to family in Manila.
Hubby being the eldest in their family and working abroad that is, feels that he has a responsibility to give assistance to their family back in Manila. All his siblings are all professionals but truth to be told, if we are compare their salary with his salary, of course he is in a better position to help his parents back home. Both my in-laws are long retired from their professions and to their credit, NEVER have they asked any money from us since we have migrated here.
Bringing my in-laws back here would mean that we had to spend for everything, from visa-application to fare to travel insurance. That was fine with me because we can get to save from childcare fees for Sammie when they are here. To make it easy on me I was just thinking that instead of using the money to pay childcare, we just used it for the fare of one of them.
When they got here of course it would mean additional budget for food and an increase in the utility bills -- gas, electricity and water. Not to mention the money we have to spend everytime we go out, we eat or visit places. That was fine with me especially with all the help we have been getting from them. I was not planning in giving them any allowances while they were with us but I guess God really works in ways we don't understand.
Aside from shopping for them and I just found myself telling Alvin that I'd be giving an allowance to Dad and Mum after their first week of stay with us. Yes, I volunteered! Milagro! I sensed Alvin was surprised too! hehehe Anyway, to make the long story short, we gave them allowance every week and I was giving it to them without a heavy heart. I felt good about the whole thing.
When my sister-in-law arrived, again, it was another opportunity to spend. I think I mentioned in my previous blog that with all the travels we have been making I am starting to get worried. I was worried because it was all spending, lahat palabas, konti lang ang papasok. I even told hubby that I wasn't doing any accounting with all our expenses! I was getting worried because my guaranteed teaching days (teaching blocks) were ending. Tapping on our savings was non-negotiable of course. But in my heart I know that God would provide.
During the last week of my parents-in-law I again felt the Spirit moving me and I again volunteered to prepare a little amount of money for Lolo Dad and Lola Mum. If it was the old Jeana, I'd probably wouldn't even have thought about it since we have already spent a lot for them. But I went with it. Along with our Thank You cards, we gave them that as a send-off present. Not only that, I felt like Santa I even thought of sending money too for his other siblings in Manila! Call it an early Christmas present! I don't know what was wrong with me! hehehehe Bahala na sila Lord. I gave it in good spirit and not with a heavy heart.
I was still worried though. I am only but human. But true enough, God proves that so long as you share, He will take care of the rest! As soon as we gave something be it in church, our chosen NGOs and most especially to our family, something comes back, instantly! Amazing indeed!
Tunay nga, kapag sarado ang kamay mo wala ka ng pwedeng matanggap kesa kung nakabukas ang mga palad mo, mas maraming biyaya ang matatanggap mo!
This whole thing of giving has been a loooong struggle for me. Slowly but surely I can feel that God is working in me, changing my heart, changing my views, changing my ways. And just when I thought I have fully learned this lesson and fully embraced this mantra, God taps me and tells me I'm not yet 100% okay, that He is not done with me yet. Yes, it's my parents' turn this time. It's their turn to be God's instruments of teaching me to embrace the fact that indeed it is in giving that we receive.
