The day ended well yesterday, really well. I felt good because I was able to achieve something. I was able to overcome one fear, I have been trying to repress for some weels now.
Yesterday, Alvin and his parents went to Jenolan Caves and the Blue Mountains. They left at 7am and got home at around half past eight. The whole time, I was alone at home with my two kids. The day before, Alvin was a bit hesitant to leave me with the two kids, afraid if I can handle both. I told him, I might as well practice, because three weeks from now, this will be the case for five days a week, Mondays thru Fridays. Of course, at the back of my mind, I was also scared. This is it.
To make the long story short, I was able to make it with flying colors! Clean our place, do some laundy, fold the clean clothes, wash the dishes, cook rice and fry fish, give my kids a bath in the morning and at night before they went to bed, eat on time, take a bath in the morning and before I went to bed (don't laugh now, but I was ready for that, people have been telling me to be ready for that as well -- days where you are so preoccupied with the more important things that taking a bath takes a back seat!), and lastly, do some grocery with Liam and Sam! Yes, I was able to do all that! When Alvin got home, they were so surprised with what I was able to do!
I am not taking all the credit. I thank first the Lord for preparing me mentally, emotionally and physically for this. I thank the Lord for Liam. Actually this part was the area I was most afraid of, but I was really surprised how he acted the entire day! He was such a responsible boy! A good son and a good kuya at that! I will forever thank God for him! I therefore conclude that he only acts childishly when his grandparents are around. But it's just me at the house, he acts maturely. I thank God for him. I also thank the Lord for Sam, who cooperated as well. She is also slowly proving to be a good girl. She didn't have tantrums and she slept well in the afternoon. I thank the Lord for friends who continue to give me tips and encouragement. They have been an inspiration.
I feel good. I feel like I have renewed energy. I am now not afraid. I am ready to face what awaits me come January. Sabi nila kaya ko, kaya ko nga.
