What is Your Purpose?

Two weeks ago I had the chance to do an on-line retreat in preparation for the feast of St. Mary of the Cross Mackillop (Australia's first saint). The theme for day one was The Potter God.  We used the material in one of our HHPMs and it allowed me to ponder more on the message of that session.

I found myself asking these questions:

First, have I already achieved my purpose in life? I am now a mother and a wife -- two of the biggest dreams I had which were given to me with God's grace. Is this my purpose? Which actually led me to my next question: if this is not yet my purpose, then what else does God want me to do? What is His purpose for me? Is being a mother, a wife and a teacher only a part of His bigger plan?

Have you asked the same question to yourself? I am pretty sure, like me, you are also at peace and happily contented with what you have now, but have you ever thought of, what if God wants to still use you in a different way?

It has been two weeks since I have asked those questions to myself and I have found myself not even being close to answering it. I know it will take rime. I need His grace and wisdom for me to find out. As for now, I am continuously asking and seeking His will during my me-times and quiet moments. May He soon lead me to the answers. May He soon lead me to where He wants me to be.

What about you, do you know what your purpose is?

My Cup Oveflows

Today, like the previous days was another gift. Both kids are under the weather. Before, I always dreaded the time when they are both sick. But today was different. I am thankful they got sick because it paved the way for other blessings to come in. It was what I focused on more. Maybe that is the reason why I don't feel exhausted or grumpy even if I spent the whole day being a doctor and nurse to them.

The past couple of weeks have been really challenging for me, juggling my time with full-time work, work at home, studies and service. It's been chaotic alright, but I have never been at peace, have never been contented.

Everyday, after I drop off Kuya at my brother's home (my parents are currently bringing and fetching him from school), we get to pass this high spot. From there, you can see the mountains over the horizon. I am at awe. It's a special moment I look forward to seeing and feeling every morning. It is a reminder and it is at that point where I always feel so thankful. That moment when I marvel at the view, I feel God's presence. The things that I am thankful for all come rushing into my mind.

First, I'm thankful I'm alive and get to spend another day with my kids and Alvin. I'm thankful for them and how we get to show our love for each other everyday. I'm thankful, hubby and I are continuously learning from the challenges that face us, making us stronger and closer. I'm thankful that Alvin is also growing in his faith everyday.

I'm thankful for the beautiful prayers of my children in the morning when we start our day. They pray not only for themselves and their wants, but they pray for other people. I almost cried when they prayed for the kids affected by the war in the Middle East and the victims of MH17.

I'm thankful for the challenges that are making me more mature. I am still in the process of growing up, but I think I have again improved when it comes to choosing my battles.

I'm thankful for the clean air that we get to enjoy that allows me to marvel at that beautiful creation which are kilometers away from where we are! I'm thankful for the clear blue skies we have here!

I'm thankful for the safe and peaceful country my kids are growing up.

I'm thankful for the inconveniences that I meet everyday.

The last couple of weeks may be very tiring, physically exhausting for my part, but it has allowed me to appreciate more the things around me, whether big or small. I may be dealing with sick kids (like now) or a problem over at work or my on-line studies or my accreditation, thinking of how to finish off all my back log of duties at home -- but with God's grace I have now come to that state that I know all these shall pass and I need not stress or worry about it.

My cups overflows with thanksgiving.

While Waiting

I'm waiting for my files to be uploaded and I just decided to write while I'm waiting.

I've missed blogging.

I have so much to write but other things are obviously more important to spend time on.

I have missed writing Kuya Liam's half-yearly letter. I have missed writing my journey to career blessings. I have missed writing about our Snowy adventures even the lessons we've learned when we were selling our property in Manila. My adventures with the parents of my students, my accreditation, my studies...tralalala...the list goes on!

As I was just driving home this afternoon, an overflowing feeling of gratitude and peace came over me. Yes, I'm physically tired, everyday. I have never been this tired in my life! But there are so many things I'm learning along the way and many things I am cherishing each day, which I am more thankful for.

I hope to get the chance to write all of them.

God willing.