Today I am writing my blog in peace.
Liam is back to daycare. The big difference is, Sam is now with him.
I have no substitution call today so I am alone in the house.
The past three days, Liam has been hinting every now and then how he will miss me when he goes back to Yogies.
Sam last night was a bit uneasy in her sleep. I don't know what time it was but she kept on waking up calling out for either me or her Papa. She even woke up as soon as I finished taking a bath (around 6am).
I don't know if they can feel the uneasiness inside me. The fear and the worry inside me.
It's really very hard leaving your kids to somebocy else's care. Part of me feels guilty, but another part says I shouldn't. Why would I when there are millions of moms out there who either leave their kids in childcare or with nannies, right? Sundays to Wednesdays I am a full-time mum to them. When they are not in daycare, I am the one who personally takes care of them. And it hasn't reached that point when they prefer their teachers/carers over me!
I also think I need this break every now and then. It recharges me and I am pretty sure it will make me less (or not at all!) grumpy to my kids and my hubby when they get home. I can take care of them better, right?
We have prayed for this so I know that we are on the right path. I should not worry because it is now that FAITH comes in.
I can only pray and hope that my kids are ok (with the trained childcare workers); that their carers/teachers will help us, help them hone their God-given talent and skills,and lastly, won't have any bad effects on their development. I know they are in a good centre. They did a good job with Liam so I am less worried about how they are going to take care of Sam. In addition to the old and veteran teachers who took care of Liam before, a new carer in the centre happens to be a kababayan.
So I really shouldn't worry, right?
Am I convincing you or myself?
Probably just convincing myself. :)
P.S.
I have called their daycare twice and good to hear that Liam is doing well and Sam is too.
It was funny because when I left them Sam didn't cry! (I was the one who cried back in the car!) :)
A mum will always be a mum.
