I am no shopaholic. Really? Really! Nakakaloka. The past few days the shopaholic bug has been pestering me! (again!) As I shared in my previous blog, I can already feel and see the difference with my lifestyle now as compared when I was still in Manila. Maybe I was deprived of signature items while growing up so now that I have the means to buy them, I usually find myself buying things (even if there are sill too much unused clothes or things at home!) not only for me but for my children, hubby, friends, family, godchildren and children of friends. Well it's not all signature items. But the past few days I have been bombarded with a lot of good deals in the internet and the shops catalogues, now, my mind can't seem to get enough of thinking of buying these goods -- clothes, foods, things at home,for the people I have mentioned earlier. It is not helping that we are going to Manila this year and that my little bubbly girl will be celebrating her birthday there.
I am controlling my urge to buy things and more things as pasalubongs, give-aways and prizes. I mean name it, I want to buy it: perfumes, make-up, signature cap, shoes, slippers, clothes, books, etc! etc! etc! the list would go on and on! I just want to share my blessings!! hehehe This morning, I found another good buy at the net and I was so close to purchasing them, BUT, I decided to ask "permission" from my hubby first. Of course he said yes, but I stopped myself. I told him to look at the goods I will be buying first. Nakak-guilty gumastos kasi right now I am not contributing to the family income (AND I just shopped for dresses again from Kmart this morning...not for me but for friends' children and godchildren in Manila). Hehehe. But hey, I have my allowance from the government for being a full-time mum! But still, I know that I still have the tendency to do impusle buying so I am soooo trying hard to resist the temptation. I must be practical. I should think of our long term goals, like our own home in the future. The other day I was just compalining that we still have toooo much new unused clothes in our cabinets. So until all of it has been used, I guess I should wait (?) Good luck!
I am just thinking of my friends who went abroad way ahead of us and recalling if they gave pasalubongs to everyone everytime they went home? Well, I guess the kids, but the older ones? Wala na ata. Nakakatawa kasi pati yung anak ng mga nang-ookray at nang-aaway sa akin dati sa Ateneo or sa family namin, gusto ko rin uwian ng pasalubong! Loka-loka ba ako? Minsan nagdo-doble ng nga! Am I trying to prove something? Maybe. (The evil grin on my face).
I feel scared sometimes when I go home from a shopping spree. Why? Well for one, my hubby and I are giving our children everything we know that will make them happy (that we can afford okay?) in a silver platter (because we were not able to experience and have it as kids)...they might grow up not appreciating things like the what we, their parents, do feel now. Lumaki kami sa hirap kaya alam namin ang value ng hard-earned money. E pano kaya sila? At pano kung isang araw magising na lang ako na wala na ang lahat at wala ng pambili? I put all these things in my mind and it does help me resist the urge. I should also lessen my internet time and going to the shops to resist the urge more? Maybe.
They say that shopaholics just buy and buy and buy without knowing the consequences and without really thinking if they have the means (all purchases are paid in cash and not by credit cards...even our holidays!) and do they need it or who will be using it. Now from what I have shared with you and my attempts to resist the urge, does that make me a shopaholic? No. Because even if I have the means to buy, I still weigh the pros and cons and I buy knowing that it will be used by people whom I will give it to. So I am no shopaholic! I told you so! ;) Do I have the makings of a shopaholic? I rest my case.
