My ever dearest Sammie,
Mama's first letter for you this year is a month early because come next week, Mama might become a bit busier.
The last couple of months have been really special for the two of us. I have seen you grow from that little bub, slowly moving away from our shadows and now slowly having your own personality.
Mama will be starting her full time work in a couple of days and I feel guilty. I know that after my teaching block last year, I said that having a full-time job will not be an option for me, until both of you are already in the big school. That is why I feel guilty, most especially for you. Part of me is saying I am being unfair to you as when Kuya Liam was your age, I was a full-time mum. Believe me when I say I want to be as fair to you and Kuya, spending the same amount of time and attention...but our circumstances have changed. The opportunity which came two weeks ago was too good to pass and was a big blessing not only to me but to the entire family! I thank you and your Kuya for allowing Mama to get the job. For assuring me that we will all handle it and as always, all shall be well.
Let's try to make the best of the remaining precious days, okay?
How about recapping the hi-lights of the last six months?
Here are the things that I have observed, things that you did, that made me thank God everyday for giving you to us!
You are growing up to be a fashionista! I can't count anymore the number of times we had an argument all because of the clothes you wanted to wear! When you have set your mind into something, there's no making you change your mind! You are into dresses and boots at the moment. You feel like a princess everytime you wear one. Can't blame you because indeed, you are our princess.
You have started with you Physie classes and you have enjoyed it to bits! I remember there was one instance when you didn't want to do one routine because you had to shake your bottom. You were so close to tears, but you muttered enough courage and did it! Well done Sam!
You are very observant and you remember stuff with precision! I always get into trouble every time I promise you something and hope you won't remember it, because you do! I have ran out of excuses!
You now understand that rules will always be a part of growing up. I am happy that you try your best to follow them especially when you are at school.
You became a Frozen fanatic! I can't count the number of times you've watched the film, sang the theme song, and pretended to be Queen Elsa! I love your mini-shows and concerts! :-) You've even wanted to dye your hair blond and wanted to grow your hair instantly just as so you can have the same hairstyle as Elsa!
This blew my mind off...one day, after picking you up from school, you told me you had a boyfriend, Darcy. You told me a LOT of stories about him and even told me that when you grow up you are going to marry him! Alarm bells went wang! wang! wang! You didn't want to open and share the stories involving Darcy to your Papa. For you, it's a girl thing! Ha! Well, I'll try my very best to keep all our secrets, safe.
There was a time when you kept on bugging me for a baby sister. There was a even a time when you requested that our family have 5 girls and 1 boy. As if it's that easy! You were assuring me that you are going to help Mama take care of the kids, you even said that you'd skip classes so someone can change the nappies of the kids! hehehe
You are a sweet girl and I know that you are always on the look out for all of us. You might be a bully at home, but when we're out, you are always there to protect your family. When you hear me say ouch or I get into a small accident at home, you come running or ask straight away, "Are you okay mama? Do you need help? Be careful!" You will then kiss that hurt part and try to soothe it. You are like that with me, Papa and Kuya. Yesterday, Kuya was getting all upset because of his Lego Chima. You painted him something so "he can be happy again" without any of us asking you. You are such a sweet girl.
You had some bleeding episodes and though it made us worry a bit, we're thankful that it was nothing serious.
"I promise" this was your favorite line when you get into trouble (like being silly, or when you again poked my eye!) and process the whole thing with you. "I promise, I will" was what you answered when I asked you if you'd still do the silly faces that make me laugh when I'm sad or say "You're the best Mum ever and I love you!" when you're all grown up. I am hoping, you would.
You definitely made my day when you presented me an award, for "shopping, painting flowers and
butterflies." With that award I realized you were aware of the special days we spent together, just bonding and enjoying each other's company.
You are one artist. You love to paint and it took you for me to learn to let go some more of my being a cleanliness freak! I love all your creations! I m a very proud of you! I plan to continue to expose you to different forms of art and hopefully help you hone this God given talent.
Sweetheart, let me just tell you some things we need to work on...you have the tendency to compare yourself to others and rely on their approval first before you can actually feel good. Lately too, you have started to become more expressive when you do not agree or when you are upset. Don't worry, you're not in trouble, yet. Remember that you are a joy to us. A breath of fresh air from the toxicity brought about by the stress or worries we have. I love hearing your boisterous laugh, your giggles and screams. I will forever cherish each moment and thank God everyday that I get to see most of these special moments.
I love you forever.
Mama
